Make Pie

Well... lets see... I have been pondering for awhile and listened to things and people around me ... I listen to complaints of not having enough ... not getting enough... not having the right things... and don't get me wrong... I have made these complaints myself... as humans we are a always wanting more species... can't get enough... I mean look at the stuff we throw away ... don't get me started on the whole bigger is better...

My little family has never had it all... I grew up with the simple things in life ... and sometimes even those were a luxury... I remember having pie and biscuits for three meals a day cuz mom and me only had black berries in the freezer left over from summer ... and mom didn't get paid for another two days from her job at the then Wolco... the now Walmart...

But I also remember Christmas as a kid...my mom (Santa he-he) would always make it special and wonderful even if it took all year... it was always this HUGE meal and family and friends and cookies and those once a year treats like eggnog ... and everyone would eat and be happy and have to loosen there pants after dinner to make room for dessert... lol ...

(this may be just mentally vomiting to those of you that actually read this lol) ... but really ... when I sit back and look at my life ... I am grateful... thankful.... we may not have everything.... we may not drive a fancy car... we don't dine out at fancy restaurants... we don't rub elbows with high society ....what is that anyway... and really who care who makes more or what they have or what they are wearing .. who is that ... Tyra?... personally I think those gurls never grew out of playing dress up... lol

We have what we need... a home, a vehicle , food, heat, warm beds, FAMILY, GOOD FRIENDS...we have simple pleasures/luxuries.... cable, internet and a little extra to go for ice cream...... I don't think I would know what to do with more than that... I have never had it ALL what ever that may look like to someone else... I would love to one day have my own house... but we have a home ....

really this rambling is me just remembering to be thankful, grateful and happy with what heavenly father has given us the strength and help to get us where we are .... and to smile... cus even when it seems like the whole world is going to end because you ran out of milk for cereal this morning.... check the freezer for that fruit you picked in the summer ... make pie.... you may think your just getting by... but speaking from a kid who remembers.... pie three times a day and warm biscuits.... makes me smile...

REMEMBER TO LOOK PAST THE WORRIES.... we have so much even when we think there is no hope...

blessings to you all
<3

Little Lu Lu

Well I am a grandma (pause for effect lol)........................................
OK to six kittens I am a grandma... lol... Lu Lu had six kittens yesterday and they are so cute... I can't wait to see what they will look like when there fur starts to change. It took three LONG hours for her to birth them all ... and the last two were worry some almost didn't think they were going to make it ... but with help they are fine... she has SIX beautiful little babes :)

Thought Provoking....

Some one made a comment the other day about lies..... well it is sad but so many people around us lie .... In so much so that after a time of telling the lie they believe it themselves.... and then it gets even more fabricated and carries on and on and on ... and then they figure if they can go this far what else can they make the people around them believe..... To my understanding it is a sickness... that they must portray themselves as this out standing person because they really have nothing to hang on to other than the fantasy. They become the victim in every situation because that is how there mind works.... They lay the blame on everyone around them when it is really themselves they have to blame. I got a email from someone explaining to me what this sickness is called and I believe it is Freudian something....

It makes me so sad that people dislike themselves so much .... and believe there own fabricated fantasies, ( better known as LIES), to the point where it hurts everyone around them... people don't want to talk to them anymore, don't want to help them anymore, for the simple fact that they are always the victim and cannot trust if that person is going to tell the truth EVER....

What hurts even more... is they keep on fabricating lies about the people that have walked away from them .... and won't have anything to do with them anymore because they have been lied to so many times .... so the story gets bigger and bigger and bigger... and it makes the people that are being lied about have to run around and prove to the people that have been lied to ... that they are not the ones lying ..... how sad and vicious this cycle is ... I just pray that they will have an epiphany and STOP LYING TO AND ABOUT EVERYONE in there lives....

It is really like a child that is not getting the attention it wants so it looks for ways that do get attention... such as ...LYING and STEALING, and then they continue to lie even when they are caught... or they make up another story to make sure they don't get blamed for what happened....

this makes me so sad, but I honestly do not feel sorry for these people anymore... because you cannot help someone that is not willing to admit they have a problem, because they will keep lashing out and still make the person who is being honest look like the person who is victimizing they Liar.

a simple life

I have realized that I have a dream, now to most they have had a dream of what they wanted all there life but me I have had no clarity on this subject for a very long time.
My dream is to be able to provide for my kids a life that they have not had, a farm life. Now as of late I have been snooping around the real estate and finding that what we want is going to cost at least a million dollars... can you believe that ?

Ok so a little insight, we live on an acre and a 1/2 and there is so much we can do , we have chickens, we have a wonderful dog, we have 4 beautiful kids, and six cats, (yes I know a lot of cats) and we have a wonderful 6 bedroom home ... BUT we are renting.... it is infact a five acre lot but we only get part of it ... anyways, I wish it was our own.... then we could carry on with our dream,,,,

We want to be some what self sufficient from the stores. we want a couple of cows, a couple pigs, and a couple of turkeys , oh and the greatest thing for me hehe, a green house and a garden.
One... we would have a our years supply of food , two we would not have to worry about all the steroids and other weird things they put in the animals... we would know what they are eating and that they were safe for our family to consume.


ahhh yes this is my dream, my dream for our family. I do hope and pray that someday this dream will become a reality.

Thankful

I Have never been more thankful to heavenly father for watching over us and protecting us from serious harm and reminding me just how lucky we are to have our family and friends that are there in our hour of need... I am so thankful for the church and all our brothers and sisters that have offered their aide at this time... may you all be blessed for your service, care and love.

this has also made me realize that as soon as heavenly father can give us blessings how quickly they can be taken away... I know heavenly father has his hand of protection over us last night letting us come home with only bumps and bruises and some stiff muscles... things can be replaced... but those we love cannot... please remember that I love you all and know that you are thought of even when we are not in touch as often as we would like...

Hugs
Maria

Quote of the day :)

"I'd rather be a could-be if I cannot be an are; because a could-be is a maybe who is reaching for a star. I'd rather be a has-been than a might-have-been, by far; for a might have-been has never been, but a has was once an are."
Milton Berle


I love this quote just thought i would share :)

Awakening.... I think

am tired of lying awake at night and wondering if it is just around the corner....I am scared of what my dreams are telling me ....I am afraid of all the things that I haven't done and maybe never will do...but truth is in grasping the shortest straw and believing that it may hold what you've left behind....

Awakening.....I think...to a new day dawning ....watching the sunrise with a tear rolling down my face...wondering ....hopeing ....dreaming ....of someday....maybe...

Watch me not as I weep for the time that is lost ...but smile at the fog that is in front of me ...the unknown...the fear that lurks in my heart as I take the first step forward...and not looking back...

I blow a kiss into the wind and hope it finds you ....the truth...the soul...my exsistance...

Now lye down and dream with me for when I wake.....the fear will subside....

Awakening ....once more


there may be fear in the heart and a forgotten dream on the other side....but in my heart is the strength to go on ...