a simple life

I have realized that I have a dream, now to most they have had a dream of what they wanted all there life but me I have had no clarity on this subject for a very long time.
My dream is to be able to provide for my kids a life that they have not had, a farm life. Now as of late I have been snooping around the real estate and finding that what we want is going to cost at least a million dollars... can you believe that ?

Ok so a little insight, we live on an acre and a 1/2 and there is so much we can do , we have chickens, we have a wonderful dog, we have 4 beautiful kids, and six cats, (yes I know a lot of cats) and we have a wonderful 6 bedroom home ... BUT we are renting.... it is infact a five acre lot but we only get part of it ... anyways, I wish it was our own.... then we could carry on with our dream,,,,

We want to be some what self sufficient from the stores. we want a couple of cows, a couple pigs, and a couple of turkeys , oh and the greatest thing for me hehe, a green house and a garden.
One... we would have a our years supply of food , two we would not have to worry about all the steroids and other weird things they put in the animals... we would know what they are eating and that they were safe for our family to consume.


ahhh yes this is my dream, my dream for our family. I do hope and pray that someday this dream will become a reality.

Thankful

I Have never been more thankful to heavenly father for watching over us and protecting us from serious harm and reminding me just how lucky we are to have our family and friends that are there in our hour of need... I am so thankful for the church and all our brothers and sisters that have offered their aide at this time... may you all be blessed for your service, care and love.

this has also made me realize that as soon as heavenly father can give us blessings how quickly they can be taken away... I know heavenly father has his hand of protection over us last night letting us come home with only bumps and bruises and some stiff muscles... things can be replaced... but those we love cannot... please remember that I love you all and know that you are thought of even when we are not in touch as often as we would like...

Hugs
Maria

Quote of the day :)

"I'd rather be a could-be if I cannot be an are; because a could-be is a maybe who is reaching for a star. I'd rather be a has-been than a might-have-been, by far; for a might have-been has never been, but a has was once an are."
Milton Berle


I love this quote just thought i would share :)

Awakening.... I think

am tired of lying awake at night and wondering if it is just around the corner....I am scared of what my dreams are telling me ....I am afraid of all the things that I haven't done and maybe never will do...but truth is in grasping the shortest straw and believing that it may hold what you've left behind....

Awakening.....I think...to a new day dawning ....watching the sunrise with a tear rolling down my face...wondering ....hopeing ....dreaming ....of someday....maybe...

Watch me not as I weep for the time that is lost ...but smile at the fog that is in front of me ...the unknown...the fear that lurks in my heart as I take the first step forward...and not looking back...

I blow a kiss into the wind and hope it finds you ....the truth...the soul...my exsistance...

Now lye down and dream with me for when I wake.....the fear will subside....

Awakening ....once more


there may be fear in the heart and a forgotten dream on the other side....but in my heart is the strength to go on ...

Hmmmm...

Well this would be my first blog and as I have said I have wonderful people in my life, my family first and foremost :)..... I was inspired to start this blog spot by my soon to be sister in-law as she is blogging and has some wonderful pictures to go along with it...I am always looking for somewhere to post and show my writings even if they are random and share with others the wonderful things or maybe even not so wonderful things that may be going on in my life at the time :p

Any ways here I am and I really don't mind if you don't enjoy what I am writing as it is really for me anyways LOL... but who knows maybe you will ...

Cheers
Maria